Hey everyone! I know I have taken a pretty long break from writing, I had spring break and was super exhausted the first few days back that I pretty much did nothing. Spring break was awesome, I had a lot of fun and got to sleep in, we played real life fruit ninja. Which literally was throwing fruit in the air and slicing it with ninja swords, totally epic. I bought a pretty dress and shoes and played video games. It was awesome. I slightly missed writing but it was nice to take a break from anything that took actual thought.
Throughout this whole Facebook fast God has taken me through practically a spiritual cleanse. I have had to really look at what I believe about God and myself. He has also really made me question how much I actually trust God. I have had to admit quite a few different times that when it comes to trusting God there are times that I just don't. Which is stupid. Over the past couple of weeks I have really struggled with trusting God and his plan for my life. I have had a lot of terrible nightmares, which has made sleep almost nonexistent. But last night God reminded me of a couple promises the first being Psalm 4:8 "In peace I will both lie down and sleep;
for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety." The second being Psalm 91:4-5 "
He will cover you with his pinions,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness is a shield and buckler. You will not fear the terror of the night,
nor the arrow that flies by day." I prayed those verses last night before I fell asleep and slept better then I have in a long time. I had to remember that God is faithful, he will protect me even in the night when I am terrified and nightmares flood my mind with horrific images.
for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety." The second being Psalm 91:4-5 "
He will cover you with his pinions,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness is a shield and buckler. You will not fear the terror of the night,
nor the arrow that flies by day." I prayed those verses last night before I fell asleep and slept better then I have in a long time. I had to remember that God is faithful, he will protect me even in the night when I am terrified and nightmares flood my mind with horrific images.
Another area in which I have had to trust God in is my future. I know that there are certain things that I have been called to do. Graduating and leaving Liberty saddens me, I don't want to leave everyone I know but I have to stick to the path that I believe God has laid out for me. Which is going back west. It is so hard to sick with that, you would think that following God when you kind of know what He wants would make it easier but it isn't. I want to make my own plans and do my own thing still. I often doubt that this is what God really wants for my life and maybe if I make this plan or that plan, it would be better. Whenever I have those thoughts I have to mentally slap myself. I mean seriously, I believe that God knows everything and that he knows my future and what is coming up, and I think my silly little plans are going to do anything? Like really? Silly Tasha. I know that by following God and trusting that He really does know best for me, my life will be so much better. It will still be hard but I would rather be in Gods will then out of it because life sucks so much worse when I am not listening to God then when I am.
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